“You only need the light when it’s burning low…

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low

Only hate the road when you’re missing home…”

This is what my mid-season wall felt like. I hit it just before Challenge Salou but kept on running into it for another 2 weeks just for the craic.

And I spent the past week knocking it down brick by brick.

I realised I’d got so used to feeling “wrong” that it had started to feel “right.”

After a week of complete rest I no longer feel dizzy when I stand up, I’m no longer constantly freezing, I’m feeling feelings instead of being numb. A friend commented that I’m smiling with my eyes not just my face. I’m sleeping 12 hours a night. My appetite for food, training and life in general has returned.

One of the things I’ve had to learn to be is flexible, which doesn’t come naturally to me. I can’t touch my toes and I am a routine kind of person. I “need” to know what is happening when, why and how and any deviation to my routine spins me out….

I’ve learnt to switch off.

So with my newfound sense of flexibility I have re-written my race schedule, started a new training log and even delayed today’s planned morning ride to the afternoon when the weather is looking better.

As far as my physical health is concerned, I’ve almost finished my course of iron supplements and I’ve noticed my nails and hands are pink instead of their usual sexy bluish-grey. My energy levels have returned along with my taste buds and I’m enjoying good food and cooking.

hand  iron

All in all a very positive rest week.

A lesson to all – keep on top of your mental and physical health because they go hand in hand.


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